​​​​​Artist Statement:

情感是基本的人類元素，在我面對親人的死亡，情緒即時沉下去，內心恐懼傷痛像一層膜片包圍著。哀慟癮發了失眠、心不在焉、哭泣、苦思回憶，也麻木相信自已的「慟癮」是與眾不同，不願面對真實的社會，希望從社會人群撤退，避開有關回憶的所有。

  「慟癮」虛幻的內心模式，我以攝影記錄自己回應的行為模式，瑟縮一角的身體形態，並繪畫了一系列的剪影圖像，闡述「哀慟」的抽象空間，亦仿如新的言語表達內心的「慟癮」。並配合眼淚形態的圖案，表達苦思過程，把圖像投影到，以木板製成的身體形態影子上，影子像回憶不會停留，引發起「慟癮」了，讓它沉澱停留，認識和了解它的平常化，不是「與眾不同」，不是唯一。在影子木板上，配搭了墓碑的相框，表達「慟癮」的終結，基碑相中的是一個經驗，用了「慟癮」証實的經驗。
  「生有時，死有時；裁種有時，拔除有時；殺害有時，醫治有時；拆毀有時，建造有時；悲傷有時，歡樂有時；哀慟有時，舞蹈有時；同房有時，分房有時；親熱有時，冷落有時；尋找有時，遺失有時；保存有時，捨棄有時；撕裂有時，縫補有時；緘默有時，言談有時；愛有時，恨有時；戰爭有時，和平有時。」(傳道書3:2-8)這是人生中的模式，生與死、建造與拆毀、得與失等等交替和循序漸進中成長成熟。

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Emotion is one of the basic elements of human nature. My emotion was once made downcast by the death of a close relative. I feel my heart, with panic and sorrow, surrounded by a diaphragm. Such mourning leads to insomnia and tearful weeping. It also leads to a blind belief that my special “Grief Addiction” is extraordinary – unwilling to face the realistic society, a hope to retreat from the social group and get rid of all the unforgotten memory.



Photos are taken to record the behavioral mode of my response.  The cringed body and the paintings of silhouette can illustrate the abstract space of mourning, just like new language to express the internal “Grief Addiction”.  Teardrops patterns are also used to illustrate the process of deep thinking. When the teardrops patterns are reflected on the shadows of body-shaped wooden boards, the shadows, like memories, cannot remain still. So, “Grief Addiction” comes out here. Let it remain and precipitate, realize and understand its’ not unusal, not extraordinary and not unique. The wooden boards with shadows are matched with the only feeding tube, for nutrition purpose, before death and the only remaining gravestone after death.

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“a time to be born, and a time to die,
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
a time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to seek, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to throw away;
a time to tear, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
a time to love, and a time to hate;
a time for war, and a time for peace.” Ecclesiastes 3:2-8
This is life pattern. Life and death, construction and de- construction, ups and downs, All falls in such same pattern from growth to maturity.