​​​​​Artist Statement:

This work is the final product of a three year art adventure. It is the journey of a person who had been besieged by fears, confusions and defense mechanisms. She lost her self in the complexity and contradiction of thinking and living ethically. Her real thoughts are drowned in the grey sea between right and wrong. She disconnected the emotional feelings of her five senses and tore apart the overwhelming numbness created by the same routine every day.

These years, she has started looking for who is she, whats inside her mind and where her sensations are. She is exploring and learning as if reborn, and she is recreating and recombining by observing the sensory issues and unique way of thinking that stems from her autistic students. She is trying to connect her situations to the behaviors of autism to create her own aids to heal and comfort her own anxiety.

Sometimes, She wishes she were the only person in the world, so that she could fulfill her sensory needs without anyone interfering.

Sometimes, She wishes she were autistic, so that she could stay away from all the rules of the society and ignore all the necessary communications surrounded through social contact.

What if she were autistic, would she wrap and bury herself into lots of blankets to get a hugging sensation when she feels stress?

What if she were autistic, would she simply cover her ears and use her own voice to mask the sound around her when she has heard enough?